The time of the end of my internship is drawing near. I am sad to leave such a wonderful work environment and the job that I love. But at the same time, I am relieved that this period of my life of being a student is coming to a close. I may take the liberty to say that I have a mild case of "seniorinternitis." I'm not being lazy about my job, just thinking a lot more about the future instead of investing my energies solely in the present. I have assignments on top of seeing bereavement and hospice clients. It feels like drudgery sometimes. But it is essential to this stage in my learning. I am proud to say that my supervisors have both told me that they can see a marked difference (for the better) with my music therapy skills since when I started!
Lately, I attended the regional music therapy conference in Charlotte. Every music therapist I met, every session I went to, seemed especially inspiring knowing that I will soon be an MT-BC. I even got to use some of the vocal improv exercises I learned at the conference in the grief choir! I reconnected with friends from Appalachian, Florida, and New Orleans. New opportunities seemed to be waiting around every corner.
Sadly, my time in sweet Asheville is coming to a close. I am going to be what a friend in Boone referred to as a "Boonerang," but not in the lame sort of way. Boone draws me back because of its sense of rejuvenation and comfort. I feel like I need to move back to Boone a) because I will not move back in with my parents, b) because many of my friends are in Boone, c) because Boone is my spiritual center, d) because I have a place to stay and a part time job lined up there, and e) because my heart says "YES! You need time to collect yourself, reflect on where you have been, and where you want to go". I recognize that times of transition, "gateway" times, are somehow necessary to me to provide insight.
It was stated in the last kirtan I attended that Ganesha (the Hindu god of overcoming obstacles) guards the gateway to our hearts. Therefore, I humbly ask Ganesh to be my friend, and please, to let me pass into a place in life free from anxiety and full of happiness.
